Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Hello everyone! I just started my new job at the cube farm. I want to tell you all about how much fun I'm having, but when you work at these kinds of places you gotta be careful what you say. So I'll not talk good or bad about it. I would rather not wish that I type up something that could be googled and then everyone would be all up in my bidness. It would probably be the same if I went and worked at the Hospital. Anyway, life is a little confusing for me right now. I don't exactly know how to tell you about it. For the first time in a long time I've been seriously considering my future, I think I said this before, maybe the February of last year. But this time I'm actually preparing myself to do something about it. Which in essence, means I'm wanting to go to school and planning out how to get there. Yeah I know it's a crazy idea for me, but since the two choices of employment I have are not really jobs I want to waste my life on, I have to do something to preserve my sanity. I also have plans to move out of the shack I live in currently. It's not that is too small or a bad place, I guess I'm just wanting to move away from the past. I want to be able to rely on myself a little more too.
I'd like to say that I feel really happy now. I'm afraid though that I'll get scared and give up my plans as per usual.
Nana collapses like a flan in a cupboard...
I guess my only comfort is as long as I take care of myself first, and do what's best for myself I should have to worry about failing, or what anyone should think of me.
Well..that's it for today......
Happy Wednesday!