Why is it so much easier for me to believe in destiny than in hope?
When it comes to my future I just let things happen, I don't make plans I just let it run its course.
So far this belief had served me well. I always feel myself being pushed in ironic and unusual situations but I usually come out either on top as things just fall into place.
I can't help but feel somthing horrible, somthing fearsome is waiting for me in the not too distant future. I don't know, and its awful how afraid it is making me. Its like a sword of Damocles.
I know my belief in fate is going to fail me.
Hope, planning for a fruitful future is what I need now, but why am I so afraid to try to have them?